i read, therefore I AM

i have bookmarked them
they are the first thing firefox loads.
i read for updates,hoping there will be.
hopefully none, saving me from heartbreaks.

yes, i'm torturing myself
preparing for 'that' day
still, hoping not for failure
but for that bam-wam-alakazam

i read them, rants, fantasies, fears, and hopes
just so, even vicariously - live them
so that i might feel their panic, lost, and triumph
so that i can feel the splendor -- the HALLOW halls

'keisea

i was browsing and came across your profile
i've seen your pictures, where you've been
what you're doing, and what you've seen
oh, your smile never fails to mesmerize me

you were my soulmate and you are not aware
you were my friend but you are everybody's friend
you were simple, bereft of misdemeanor
you were always smiling, inducing tremor

you did inspire me, to be better
you are the sunflower in that red bmw.
now you will be the doctor,
and one day i'll be your patient

'how to live life' - for DUMMIES

maybe on some self-help book
an obscured page has suggested;
ways to kiss the hands of heaven
ways to get notice.Oh expose the heathen.

them, books that takes over your soul.
authors that pocket your transmogrification.
them, readers who follow with reverence.
psst... your motives are showing.

go find another self-help book
that will teach you to conceal your intentions.
the stench of your pretension
is reeking with vile deception.

Ilocos trip

*From my ilocos trips; pictures taken with motorola V3

Happy? Merry?

GanG RapE

like predators, lurking
seem impassive and non-moving
and like predators, drooling
ready to pounce,gormandize its prey

in the dead of the night
the deafening silence pierces
like a hungry pack of wolves
undressed, suck the juices of its prey

you raped her as if not enough
swallowed her whole, while triumphantly laughing
we will give you indigestion
so painful you wish you haven't debauch her

you, hungry pack of dirty wolves
who attack by sheer arrogance of numbers
cannot, must not, and will not triumph
you are mistaken for we will denounce your audacity

wolves in sheeps' clothing,
you think we're not looking?
Beware of the lightning rods,demagogues, and mobs
we are full of your schwarmerei, ready to vomit

true, obsolescence should be replaced
do it with dignity and grace
don't force yourselves
or face coup de grace

1 dead 1 blacklabel and 2 cases of grande

death at 25, a young life
obscured by the netherworld.
we remember not your lifeless form
but your laugh,prattle and pranks.

to balance a life lost
we celebrated another's birthday.
intoxicated by the blacklabel,
obstreperous party with the grandee

ngiti ng masungit

bumati kang nakangiti
bumigkas kang tila mayumi
akala'y maayos ang umaga
hindi pala, ako'y biktima

mapagkunwaring ngiti
pinalitan ng matalim ng ngisi
sumgot na may pang-uuyam
pagpapanggap ay nakasusuklam

the DAY your SOUL dies=-

kiss someone's ass
kiss the ground where he walked
adore them pompously like maniacs
your antics are lethal, your soul inimical

pretend satisfaction
obliterate your identity
deny your every affinity
your antics are lethal, your soul inimical

shout quietly
protest invisibly
wage war amicably
hail to the death of your soul!

goneGOINGgone

the vastness of space made insignificant by wails.
speed of light slowed by the ticking life.
antiseptic smell of bygone days, reeking of grief,
return to ashes in a slow lambent from wicker's end

PA'NO?

pa'nong masasabi kung hindi pinapahalagahan?
pa'nong maririnig kung sa oras ay kapos naman?
pa'nong magkakasama kung ang isip ay nasa kawalan?
Pahalagahan, Pakinggan ... samahaN

PAriSUkaT

sa apat na sulok ng daigdig
mga pangyayaring nililirip
mga tulang binibigkas sa isip
mga tinig na nakapag papaidlip

sa aking apat na galamay
kita'y hindi iwawalay
patuloy na iinog, hindi magkamayaw
parisukat na butones sa guhit ng uhales

ANILAO

...Nasubukan mo na bang
Mag-rapids sa Pagsanjan
Mag-diving sa Anilao
Mag-surfing sa Siargao?... halina byahe tayo

While the country was cursed,
sent back to pehistoric ages.
there's absolutely no news of the outside world
no tv, no radio, most of all no cellphones

it was friday, no more turning back
i have to hurdle impassable roads
must get to office and must revive
get my phone back to life

CBD was no exception, skyscraper of darkness
and so was our antiquated office building.
Only the hallways were lit, barely breathing
to charge my phone was the order of the day

success it was, i was ready to go. But no.
There's work to be done. Application to run.
Must finish. Must be emancipated from
the throes of modern day dictator - computer.

Damn the situation. Thorn by anticipation.
It was my lucky day. Made a call, get the direction.
Travelling was fun. The sight i saw -- destruction.
But Batangas was different, barely touched.

Arrived i did in style.
Welcome to Residencia Pastor - Acosta 1883
Very Spanish, very old, very ....
not to mention the numerous automobiles of all sizes
(why was i born poor... bwahahaha...)

The sun rose and all the opulence aside
and with all the packed foods safely towed behind
we climbed the everest and headed straight to ANILAO
yes, ANILAO! the beaches, the corals, and the fishes

Like a virgin, we dived for the first time (at least for me)
It was heaven beneath the superficial emerald- aquamarine sea
There were alien creatures, swimming, floating, in different colors
There were nemos and dorys, and scars, no sting rays on the sea floor

The sight was really amazing, the sea world captivating
colony of sea urchins, spikes were threatining
A melange of fish species, gliding, interacting
stream of colors, dull, bright, incandecsent blithe

m.i.l.e.n.y.o

Horrendous howling wind
battered and brawled the metropolis
trees snapped, bereft of leaves
billboards crashed, stripped of vanity

rivers rose, flooded the commmunity
mountains slid, burrying an entirety
unleashed on us, Earth's fury
we screamed, scampered, cried unpampered

to say the aftermath was shocking
is an understatement -- choking
uprooted century old trees good for burning
condemned DAO weathered, standing, looking laughing

while most part of Luzon was benighted
scoundrels' abound, gushed leprotic blood
winner was he who stole the most electric cables
mother of all winner is he who stole electric pylons

-- power interruption extended, indefinitely...

kutkut

sugat ng iba'y kutkutin
basura nila'y kalkalin
uling sa mukha ay pahirin
dura nila'y iyong lunukin

sugat ng ibay kutkutin
kahit peklat na'y kalikutin
upang muling magsugat
huway tigilan hanggang hindi nag nanaknak

sana may super powers ako_--_--_

haaaay.. nami miss na kita
sana may portkey papunta jan
nang sa ganun kita'y masilayan
mahagkan makakwentuhan... matitigan

o kaya nama'y meron akong power
na makapag teleport papunta jan
at duon tayo sa dalampasigan
magkahawak kamay na maglalakad.

o kahit man lang telepathy
nang sa ganun ay instant ang usapan
laging makakapagbulungan
at walang humpay na usapan

sad_AND_happy... 3days na lang

no charger no phone -
down is our line of communication
no charger no phone -
sad reverberations

the day yet arrives... nearing
and that day will be surprising
favorite colors arriving
ours is everlasting

-ayayatenka

THE DIALOGUE: EAST MEETS WEST

-----Original Message-----
From: Mr.East
Sent: Wednesday, August 30, 2006 8:07 AM
To: x; y; z; abc
Subject: Mr.West's response to the bug i reported.

mr.east (7:16:53 AM): hi good morning.
// GOOD MOOD PA
mr.west (7:41:59 AM): heya
mr.west (7:42:06 AM): sorry was elsewhere
mr.west (7:42:10 AM): whats up
mr.east (7:42:53 AM): its ok. regarding your reply to my email to
you. its at cust serv2 -> add call report -> then have a refund resolution.
mr.east (7:43:06 AM): but as of there i think a problem with the
database.
// OH UH
mr.east (7:43:53 AM): if you have question or i can clarify it
better just tell me. :-)
mr.west (7:44:28 AM): it's interesting that you are having that
issue because nowhere else is the script giving that issue.
mr.west (7:44:35 AM): I'll look into it right now though
mr.west (7:44:53 AM): do you know what function is doing that are
what view?
mr.east (7:45:21 AM): yes please do. what i have notice is on the
db class. every time a new DB instance is declared you do preprocess
which manipulate $_GET and $_POST
// DEMONSTRATES HOW SURE OF HE IS OF HIS CODES
mr.west (7:45:42 AM): precisely and the DB instance is the first
thing that is created
mr.west (7:45:58 AM): can you tell me the function and the class in
which this is occuring?
// LET ME SEE WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT
mr.west (7:46:05 AM): need that function and class
mr.east (7:47:03 AM): CUST_SERV2_EDIT_REFUND_REQST.php
mr.west (7:47:16 AM): and which function?
// NO! I INSIST!
mr.east (7:47:40 AM): wait can i walk you thru. lets start again.
mr.east (7:47:44 AM): open index.php
// AND SO DO I! (TROUBLE BREWING)
mr.west (7:47:57 AM): I just want to know which function created
that data
mr.west (7:48:04 AM): that will tell me where the issue is
mr.east (7:48:11 AM): notice line 29
mr.east (7:48:25 AM): ahhh ok the insert?
// ONE LINER COMMENT IS A SURE SIGN OF IRRITATION
mr.west (7:48:36 AM): yes
mr.east (7:48:39 AM): ok wait.
// OOOH I HAVE TO REPEAT MYSELF, SOMEONE CAN’T UNDERSTAND ENGLISH
mr.west (7:48:47 AM): just the function and the class
mr.west (7:49:40 AM): there is no insert in that class
mr.west (7:49:54 AM): where is the insert occurring??
mr.west (7:51:19 AM): oh wait nevermind... my search was caps sensitive
mr.east (7:51:22 AM): insert:
CUST_SERV2_EDIT_CALLREPORT::saveRefundRequest
mr.east (7:51:57 AM): update
CUST_SERV2_EDIT_REFUND_REQST::updateRefundRequest
// MUST BLAME SOMEONE!
mr.west (7:52:24 AM): is anyone adding slashes prior to that
// MUST DEFEND!
mr.east (7:53:11 AM): i believe we have already removed per our
code review the other week.
mr.west (7:53:51 AM): Oh wait
mr.west (7:53:54 AM): I know
mr.west (7:54:13 AM): to preserve those, it has to save them like that
mr.west (7:54:23 AM): the double strip slashes is one method.
mr.west (7:54:45 AM): you can also use ereg_replace and replace the
numerous slashes with single ones
mr.west (7:55:13 AM): thats just the way that carriage returns and
line breaks are handled by the function
mr.west (7:55:29 AM): it's an issue with the PHP function
mr.west (7:55:34 AM): nothing I can do about that
// BUT NO! MUST INSIST MY POINT… INTELLECTUAL MUSINGS
mr.east (7:55:55 AM): yes true. but teh number of time preprocess
is called, is the number of time Db class is instanciated [TURN THE SPELLING CHECKER ON].
// (INSULTED) MUST DEFEND
mr.west (7:56:05 AM): untrue
mr.west (7:56:21 AM): preprocess is a function in the instance
// (FEELING VICTORIOUS) MUST INSIST, MUST BRING HIM DOWN!
mr.east (7:56:24 AM): treu lets me show you. open index.php
// (INSULTED) MUST DEFEND
mr.west (7:56:37 AM): the function may be called multiple times in
the instance but that doesmn't create new instances
// (FEELING VICTORIOUS) MUST INSIST, MUST BRING HIM DOWN!
mr.east (7:56:41 AM): but it manipulate global $_POST and $_GET
// (WOUNDED AND BITTER AND ANNOYED) REMEMBER : ONE LINER COMMENT IS A SURE SIGN OF IRRITATION
mr.west (7:56:52 AM): so?
mr.west (7:57:04 AM): take my word for this
mr.west (7:57:09 AM): no new instances are created
// (FEELING VICTORIOUS) MUST INSIST, MUST BRING HIM DOWN!
mr.east (7:57:14 AM): it allways add slashes to $POST and $_GET [WHEN DID THE LEXICOGRAPHERS/LINGUIST MADE ALWAYS WITH A DOUBLE ‘L’]
everytime DB is instaciated
// (INSULTED) MUST DEFEND, MUST MAKE SENSE
mr.west (7:57:23 AM): if that were the case, the framework would
take forever to load
// (INSULTED) MUST DEFEND, MUST INSULT HIM BACK, LIKE HE DIDN’T KNOW THE DIFF BET INSTANCE AND FUNCTION
mr.west (7:57:47 AM): John, you need to understand the difference
between an instance and a function
// (INSULTED) MUST PRETEND HE KNOWS THE DIFF BET INSTANCE AND FUNCTION
mr.east (7:57:57 AM): i know.
// (INSULTED) I’M THE MORE INTELLIGENT BEING HERE
mr.west (7:58:01 AM): I can call a function from within an instance
a MILLION times
mr.west (7:58:07 AM): t doesn't create new instances
mr.west (7:58:17 AM): only one instance still exists
// (INSULTED) MUST INSIST, MUST BRING HIM DOWN!
mr.east (7:58:17 AM): wait let me walk you thru wo how i came up
to that conclusion.
// (INSULTED) MUST DEFEND, MUST MAKE SENSE
mr.west (7:58:31 AM): no because it's not true
// (INSULTED) I GIVE UP. (LOSER?)
mr.east (7:58:39 AM): ok then.
// (INSULTED) I’M THE MORE INTELLIGENT BEING HERE
mr.west (7:58:43 AM): its a basic premise of object oriented
Programming
// (INSULTED) I’M THE MORE INTELLIGENT BEING HERE
mr.west (7:58:48 AM): talk to your team
// (INSULTED) (LOSER?)
mr.east (7:58:53 AM): i aready did.
mr.west (7:58:53 AM): they will explain this to you
mr.west (7:59:01 AM): then take my word for it
mr.west (7:59:06 AM): I've benchmarked this
// (INSULTED) MUST INSIST, MUST BRING HIM DOWN!
mr.east (7:59:21 AM): have you tried the test script i made?
mr.west (7:59:31 AM): yes
// (INSULTED) I’M THE MORE INTELLIGENT BEING HERE
mr.west (7:59:45 AM): no new instances are created
// (INSULTED) MUST INSIST x 10 TO HIGHEST LEVEL, MUST BRING HIM DOWN!
mr.east (7:59:50 AM): at teh bttom it will show you the global
POST values before and after ever DB instance is created
mr.east (7:59:58 AM): * at the Bottom
// (INSULTED) I’M THE MORE INTELLIGENT BEING HERE; SUPER ANNOYED BEYOND RECOGNITION
// NO IS EN-OW.. NO NO NO NO NO .. STOP SAYING THAT… NO
mr.west (8:00:01 AM): stop saying that!!!
mr.west (8:00:05 AM): there is one instance
mr.west (8:00:07 AM): period
mr.west (8:00:09 AM): end of story
mr.west (8:00:11 AM): one instance
mr.west (8:00:16 AM): you instantiated it one time
// (INSULTED) MUST ANNOY HIM SOME MORE… MUST BRING MY DIGNITY BACK
mr.east (8:00:22 AM): 3 times.
// (INSULTED) I’LL BULLY YOU ‘TIL THE LAST DROP OF MY ENERGY
mr.west (8:00:23 AM): and you use that instance over and over
mr.west (8:00:34 AM): you created 3 instances???
mr.west (8:00:36 AM): why?
// (INSULTED, AND FEELING SUPERLOSER THAT HE IS). MUST PUT AN END TO THIS.. WHAT’S MY NAME? WHERE AM I? DIGNITY? WHAT IS THAT WORD?
mr.east (8:00:44 AM): aynway ok. i'll talk it over again with my
team and boss.
mr.west (8:00:47 AM): you only need one per server
mr.east (8:00:56 AM): i instaciated it 3 times just to show my point
// TALK TO THE HANDS.. COZ SOMETIMES, THEY REALLY ARE FUNNY LIKE OUT OF MY LEAGUE FUNNY.
// ANYWAY I’M HAVING A GOODNIGHT SLEEP…. LULLABYE MR.WEST ON THE TREE TOP… NUNINUNINU
mr.west signed off at 8:00:57 AM.


-=MORAL OF THE STORY =-
THERE’S ALWAYS A BETTER WAY OF GETTING YOUR POINT ACROSS THIS MULTIDIMENSIONAL PLANE CALLED EARTH.
THE MOMENT YOU INSIST THAT YOU ARE SUPERIOR OVER THE OTHERS, BE PREPARED OF THE RETALIATION
YOU’LL GET. LET’S GIVE PEACE A CHANCE. THE WORLD IS NOT ABOUT THE PROGRAMS WE CREATE. THERE ARE OTHER
THINGS IN LIFE OTHER THAN ALGORITHMS AND THE ABSTRACT. LOOK AROUND YOU AND SMELL THE ROSES. LOL
- halimaw_sa_banga

PATIENCE is a virtue

so far far away...
i missed you in every way.
i missed the 'regional accent',
im longing for your scent

so far far away...
never worry coz im here to stay.
even if we are miles away,
my love for you will never stray

so far far away...
you assured me, the same way
i assured you, and we pray that
heaven sustains our patience

so far far away...
you've mentioned our amusing situation
that with all these perigrination
we have but one destination...

so far far away...
and we just continue living everyday
hoping to hear, to see, and to touch
waking each day, waiting, and waiting

NGITI naman DIYAN

tuwing naiisip kita at naalala
o sumasagi sa aking diwa ang yung mukha
ako'y nangigiti, hindi ngiting pang sira ulo
hindi rin naman ngiting aso

ngiti na --- alam mong may saya
tila ba mona lisa, ngunit anong lihim
kaya sa ibinubungingis ang
tayo lang dalawa ang nakatatalima?

tunog ng WALIS TINGTING sa tuyong DAHON

sementadong bakuran, mataas na pader
makitid na palikuran sa labas ng bahay
tuyong dahong nagkalat sa paligid
tinipon ang tuyong dahon, winalis ng nakapalumpon

mabilis na takbo ng oras, ng buhay
hindi na maistorbo upang mapakinggan
ang tunog ng tingting sa tuyong dahon
ang huni ng ibon, ang kaluskos ng pusa

bakit nga ba abala, para saan, kanino, hanggang kailan
kaibigan ikaw ay huminto, paligid ay masdan
mga tunog ay pakinggan, amuyin ang kapaligaran
buhay ay maikli, mahalin, at pangalagaan.

gitara't kundiman

gusto kitang tugtugan ng gitara
ngunit kamay ko sa kwerdas ay palya
gusto kitang awitan ng kundiman
ngunit ang boses ko'y di kainaman

maghahabi na lang ako ng salita
bibigkasin ng makata
sapagkat ang mga nagawang talata
ay puno ng pag-ibig at panata

GoodnitesweetDreams

sapat ng isipin ka
kakaibang ligayang dala
malayo mat di nagkikita
damdamiy tapat sa pagsinta

nawa'y mahimbing kang natutulog
nananaginip sa pag-irog
akoy tutulog na rin
panibagong bukas nama'y susuungin

lipad isip.. hindi malirip

lumilipad na isip
mapagpanggap na titig
nagtratrabaho kunwari
ala-alang kumikiliti

sayaw sa saliw ng awit
ng paligid na marikit
gunita mong lumulunod
sa'king bawat saglit

=====================

sa kasagsagan ng ulan
ala-ala mo'y dumaan
mata'y nagliwanag
ngiti ang bumungad

adik na ngang masasabi
oras-oras kung humabi
ng masasayang ala-ala
nagbibigay sakin ng sigla

IsraelLebanonMuslimChristian - same - human

rain of bombs fall from the sky
reign of terror, tears in their eyes
ancient battle that never dies
displacing millions, deafening cries

modern civilization, antiquated thinking
new age weapon, barbric traditions
incomprehensible complexities
pushes everbody to ignominy

why can't we live in tranquility?
why preach of ethnocentricity?
why suffer from the silence of ambiguity?
false pretensions, cathartic celebration.

as for us from an island nation
whose citizens where trap in indignation
for every OFWs trapped in Lebanon
we hope and we pray, for your safe evacuation

infidel encounter# 2

the greek bear her gift once more
food for the nightshift enamor
again like a bait, i accept
munched on the goodies before i melt

the centaur left his den
pretended they watched movies in bed
decibels pierce through walls
masking the noise, pornographic voice

ISKEYRI

earthquakes in SEA
n.korea tests taepodong2
ethnic cleansing in africa
famine in africa
agitation in biblical asia
terrorists in asia
rhetorics from world leaders
the world over

armageddon? i kid thee not...

sa ulan PUMIKIT, ako'y singkit

nagpupumilit na imulat
matang pumipikit sa bigat
sa kwartong malamig
sa pagtulog nananabik

problema'y nasa opisina
maraming makakakita
siguradong may magsusumbong
parusa sa ulupong!

buhay - lakbay - sabay

kidlat na tumarak sa aking puso
kulog na kumalog sa aking pagkatao
alipin ng iyong alaala't gunita
ngiti mong nag-uudyok ng saya

sa aking paglalakbay
humiling na may makasabay
matagal na pagninilay
pag-asa'y puno ng lumbay

nung ika'y nasilayan
matang nagkatagpuan
damdami'y di maintindihan
kung ano nga bang patutunguhan

at landas nga'y nag krus ng daan
sa paglalakbay damdaming lumantay
sa agos ng batis dumalisdis
hampas ng along dagat, sa ati'y nagbigkis

surprise. surprised? surprise!

2 weeks ago a thought flew by me
it's crazy but for that you'll love me (assumption)
i told you i was going to see you
but you brushed it off thinking im crazy

yes, i am crazy and you are a luxury
the monetary cost of my addiction
cannot compensate with the abstraction
the memories we're building, pristine satisfaction

-Mishu

seeing your image is ineluctable.
hearing your voice is inevitable.
when iTunes plays your song:
it transports you to me, the feeling of incredulity

halo-halo #2

- Usapang magkuya -
Kuya: ...nagpabango sa magkabilang balikat
Bunso: ...nakigamit ng pabango ni kuya. Nilagyan pati ang likod
K: O, nagsasayang ka ng pabango, bakit pati likod mo nilalagyan mo ng pabango?!
B: Syempre, likod ang inaamony ng mga girls.. kasi mahihiya naman yung mga yun na mahuli silang

inaamoy ka...


[Oo nga naman... hehehehe]


-Promiscous-

13% alcohol gushing through our vein
loosening everyones tongue, words rain
cacophony of topic, bombarded the brain
but one issue proved to be moot,morally ingrain

sex treated so casually, fbs in full urbanity
boiling hormone out of control
the topic of pregnancy, delayed 'till confounded
by the reality,finger pointing to hormonal travesty

heated debate on morality
moot discussion of who's aggravated 'til eternity
but it was agreed that the act was consensual
share the joy of its climax, worry later for mini-me

then it was over, discussion went to a rolling boil
then his fb arrived like a greek goddess bearing gift
whole heartedly i accepted it,eat and force myself to sleep
sleep i did so lightly, deceptively.

if walls could talk they would complain
that the floor is unfair for it connives w/ the playmates.
I on the other side -- controlled breathing
as the playmates play their games, sigh their heavy sigh

luminous black room i am assured, slowly i moved
hearing sense pushed to its limit, traced the source of heavy breathe
surely i saw her on top of him grinding, slowly, breathing heavy
casual humping, will it be long lasting?

-kape lupa-
hahaha.. at long last, aalis na ko sa aking pugad

Oh! pissed the vulture

scavenging for carcasses like vulture
flying high circling the sky
striking at every opportunity
convinced of its higher degree

grumpy you will be
alone in the future maybe
command like there's no tomorrow
act like you're busy -- hollow

friday, and i'm missing you -- so much

listening to some mushy love songs
while reading some work stuff
you've suddenly staged an invasion
capturing my mind and imagination

unable to control my hands, i texted you
i've said nothing except i missed you
i never expected a reply, pessemistic in lieu
but she did missed me and affirmative

oh, if this is insanity then I'm guilty
i'm insanely thinking of you
walking down the aisle our eyes in glue
growing old together in an ultimate tableau

Just pearl & shells

i've chatted an old friend
she told me some loose ends.
a J guy likes him so much
but she can't love-like him back.

what's keeping her from doing so?
because she's into some E.
he's the epitome of everything she likes
thin tall christian and all.

but the J guy that she described --
the one who professed his love
seems to like her no matter what.
he described himself as chubby, she said he's witty.

the way she described the J suitor,
my hat's off the elocutor, his ways are awesome.
risking the friendship, gallantry, honesty.
i can't be that blunt, to the point, and gallop

silently i would help him in his battle
occassionally tweak my friend to look his way
barrage her incessantly, maybe that way
from E to J she finds a better day

bruised wain - pun intended

looks piercing, so it seems
eyes squint to enforce his screams
silent battle of psychotic dreams
wallowing in his pride,pathetic steam

he reviews movie like an expert
wittingly parotting what he read
passing it off like a fresh thread
plagiarized voice is all i heard

man rest a secondary school
vinyled tiles his collage degree
and has this notion of pedigree
casting others in a grandprix

oh well, understand that he suffers
his demons he has to conquer
he looks with a dagger, so it seems
feel it, it doesn't matter, illusion -- grander

halo - halo # 1

connect the dots
this is my take on the abyss
soul cerebrate meld by kiss
benighted metaphore galore
pomposity i so abhor

dense rain washed the road
dirt and dust denizens lust
clinging to surface as madness
wreaks havoc to birds nest

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i-canesten mo!

five friends travel down south
hurrying, scurrying mad
scratches that displace the top layer
contorted face, sigh of relief

microcosmic environ
playful playing fiends
causing the 5 friends to descend
ending the itch, intermittent relief

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yes we are exclusively texting

exclusively texting
is it the same as m understanding?
is it a feeling higher than hiking?
or more of condescending

messages on regular hours
predictable time, text cliches
expected platitudes that never fail
tolerating -- never nauseating

Saturday sadness

"it's like i'm waiting for rain in this drought"

warned by the imminent drought
contented with your spectre
earth revolving slowly on its axis
prolonging this catharsis

then came the breeze breaking
the nature's curse stopping
the plentitude of sadness.
indubitable feeling of lightness

but a breeze is a breeze
the moment it injects its anti - freeze
you'll want more, crave and never ignore
but she'll be gone, here's to the sun.

sleep hunting SLIPPER

shabby winged insect
tattooed on your back
mouth spews revenous
attack so ignominious

a never been termagant
commanding her army
like a colony of ant
pitiful whole day rant

Pilipinas 2006

rhetoric retorts
closed fists in the air
red flags migthy swerve
chants of empty threats

tradpoles suck at pond
barrels of grubby hands
self-serving brigands
out to sell our lands

stampede in the air
faucet splash everywhere
draining underground well
knowledge pell-mell

families scramble
lives in squalor
children pallid
the future's languid

stop the bickering
blood in ears,ringing
red eyes, tears drying
please start mending

road block

you said you can live without
sure you can do that.
I, too can profess of doing the same
done that for 23 years, am not ashamed

but i prayed, God knows how hard
for the right moment to arrive
and thought he'd answered me
by showing your path to me

how i know, because i asked for someone
like you... simple and complicated
i've no idea, he'll deliver you
and like gravity, you're pulling me

road block in place,
yes it would hamper
but i would not stop
'til i conquer your heart

waiting - i hope not in vain

The moment my sight caught your light
something inside me excite
i knew i have to get close
the problem was your heart cannot dispose

Still i hope, cannot invoke
looking at you from a distance
content to see you askance
still dreaming we could dance

And then i reach the tunnel's end
my heart sees the light feeling content
went the distance and provinces
just so that you feel my presence

it went well, or so i thought
you toured me, and have a brush with history
we ate your regional specialties
and got our stomach full of delicacies

and then i went back, and you stayed
i texted you with sweet nothings
and you replied with vague musings
i assumed sweet, happy, developing into something

and then vague turns murky
clouding the possibility, but i understand
i will not push my luck
not yet, i have to be patient

i don't know what you went through
with your previous rendezvouz
but i hope you'll recover soon
so that we can sart something and make it bloom

ay ayaten ka

Joy of my heart
Obfuscate my sight
Yearn for you day and night
Challenge me to a better life
Entrust me with your love and light

Bago-Bigo-Ligo

Most gimmicks, when planned end up ... just a plan, nothing more, nothing less. Ok, maybe less...

Bago-Bigo-Ligo

oh well... holy wik na next wik
sa mga plano'y nagpatumpik-tumpik
sagada,galera,mindoro, boracay
ni isa'y walang sumakay

ako'y matutulog na lamang
baka sa panaginip makapaglakbay
sana'y doon ay may kaakay
magagandang tanawin, ako'y makasilay

Bagong Pag-Ibig, Unang Kabanata

Napansin kita
sapgkat ika'y kakaiba.
Simple't maganda
medyo maldita.

Ipinagtanong mga impormasyon
edad,kurso at lokasyon.
Lahat ng ito'y tinunton
ng taimtim, palihim.

Bagama't nalaman ko ring
ika'y meron nang sinisinta,
ito'y di hadlang sa hangaring
makapaling ka.

Tine-text paminsanminsan,
At nang sa friendster ay nalaman
na sinisinta'y wala na
bagong pag-asa ang siyang tumalima.

At ngayon nga'y magpupunta
sa iyong bayang makasaysayan,
turista aking mga paa,
puso ko'y sinisinta ka.

Sana'y mapansin mo
ang gagawing pagsusumamo.
At nawa'y pahalagahan
ang aking nararamdaman.

for the pompous maniac

full of oneself,
ego out of proportion
eyes blinded by deception
self cloistered in jubilation

why think of yourself highly
why the need to convince everybody
to live in such pomposity
you alienate yourself from reality

knock down your pretensions
look around you,
the world ain't about you
convince yourself, not us

listen to what you are saying,
spiritless, disembodied, nothing
vulgar banality, floating aimlessly
trying to convince, failing miserably

supeficially shallow,
how low can you go?
talking as if omniscient prophet
but acting like an imbicile puppet

a genuine person
with incontovertible reason
fights the urge of demons.
low profile, humble, clear conscience ostensible.

StateOFMind Q1-2006

it's hard to thread the road less traveled

no directions, no shortcuts
only the will to reach the destination
i have no maps but determination


right now, i'm lost
i'm in a forest, wandering
aim... forgetting
hope.. losing


but of the remaining hope
that somehow, not revealing
the universe seems not conspiring
is a meter away from revealing


revealing the path, towards the destination
traverse through an unknown course
the hardships upon reaching it - only sweeter
only better