Goodbyes and Hello/e/s

Nagulantang ako ng sinabi ni 'B the intern' na friday ngayon. Huwaaat?! Akala ko tarsdey lang... tsk. late na ko ng isang araw sa 2 week sked ko. ampf.

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So I have to change my banner to greet 2008. Thanks G for the photoshop shortcuts. Haven't tried the CS3, yes, mac according to my brother sometimes is not that user friendly. 'nyway just marvel at the new banner! Hahaha.

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2007 has been a good year for me for many reasons. Dream realization, pay increase, 1st year anniv, and there's really no major personal crises. I can say the same thing with our country. The peso got really strong and if not for it upsetting the price surge of global oil price hell I'm as
poor as dagang bukid by now. ERAP was convicted of PLUNDER (although he wasn't able to rot in jail... at least I can call him ERAP the PLUNDERER!). I just hope that 2008 would even be better and that this time, the masses would feel the so-called strong economy. Hehehe...

GMA is lucky I think because as 2010 nears, focus on her would be less as the WANNABEs would try to outshine each other. Good for her.

But really, I hope 2008 would be better for everyone!


P.S.
Benazir Bhuto, a political icon, was assassinated. Pakistan is ending this year with a Bang! literally.

Of rights and left

Yes, the Constitution is clear and keen on protecting our rights, and as a matter of fact our country adheres to the Universal Declaration of Human Rights. Alarmingly, many persons or entities use this "rights card" not just to protect themselves from unjust-inhumane treatment but to bully others into submitting into their wistful wishes. Evidently, just like any balisong -- a double bladed weapon, the Bill of Rights which the raison d` etre is to uphold our human dignity, some people, of course those with POWER, cannot help themselves but to use the same to justify their exploits and seemingly undignified ways of furthering their business interest.

Case in fact is ABS-CBN. teehee, that's the problem with blow-by-blow account coverage, and I'm talking about their Manila Pen Siege live coverage. Naman, they cannot deny the fact that they went overboard in delivering the news to the people because as they claim... IT IS OUR
RIGHT (the public) TO INFORMATION. Opo, nakita namin kung gaano kayo kakulit! Makulit na hindi nakakatuwa. I would not go into details, just google it and more angry bloggers will tell you why. The funny part was what happened days after. Thrilled-anes et al were relegated to side stories while the ALLEGED police violation of the mediamen's RIGHT .. free spech, freedom of the press, right of the people to information, et cetera et cetera .. consistently made the headlines. IKAW na may ari ng istasyon ng TV! Really now, ABS lang ang umangal ng sobra -sobra... And they never fail to air that clip on tv showing footages of that uneventful event while the ABS voiceover man saying his piece about 'sa panig nang katotohanan' yakitidakdak.... hoping to brainwash us! Not me salami... strike 1!

Now, ABS-CBN has figured in another battle, this time about the ratings and allegedly manipulations from rival GMA. Funny talaga! Siguro nakahinga mga politiko sa pambabatikos ng mga to kasi focus sila sa sarili nila ngayon. According to various news and opinion writers -- ratings are important for they fuel the business of these network giants. Number one - 1 - uno equals more advertisers, therefore more money- moolah - kwarta. Oh well, strike 2 ABS!

It seems ABS is on the offensive lately, what with the Manila Pen and this time the AGB Nielsen controversy. They are on a frenzy.. feeding frenzy. Protecting their rights, to exploit that is.

Haha same with print media, Both Philippine Daily Inquirer and Manila Bulletin are zeroing on Philippine Star this time about ads claim... well same topic pa rin. Sabi nga ng Meja, "It's all about the money, it's all about the dam dam didi damdam".

Another recent display of ABS of its feeding-frenzy type of arrogance is the way they are riding on Charice Pempengco's triumph. They sucks big time LOL! Undeniably, CP joined their contest and because she failed to measure to what ABS' idea of what talent is, she settled for third, the contest was won by a gary v. wannabe named Sam Concepcion. News has it that her mother had begged the network to guest her daughter on some of the network's show but to no avail. Thanks to youtube she got discovered by sweden, korea, now US of A. Ngayon nagkukumahog ang ABS na bigyan si CP ng album, tama yung isang observer, nauna pang magka-album si KIM CHUI!

Hehehe... Ano naman to ngayon? the right of first claim? Charice is on the verge of penetrating the international scene, and the least ABS can do is to support her and not to stiffle that budding international career. Speculations has it that ABS won't relase CP from her contracts with the network. I repeat speculations... therefore speculative (ano daw?). Hahahahaha. strike 3!

Siyeeet showbiz! ABA! ngan na lang ang SU! SU! NOD!

Kaya napapakanta si Beyonce ng "To the left To the left To the left To the left To the left To the left Everything you own in the box to the left".

karma kamilyon

hmmm... si KARMA minsan kaibigan, minsan kaaway.

Ang sabi ang mga salbahe o naghahangad ng masama at mga hali-mamaw na masasama ay naka-karma. Yung tipong un-expectedly may mangyayring hindi maganda, ayun nakarama ang ibubulalas ng iba. Ano ba si karma? Active Entity ba ito, na tipong BIG BROTHER na sumusubaybay sa mga kilos natin, at kapag gumawa tayo ng masama ay... kabloog... pow... wham... kablam... ang kahihinatnan ng nasabing naghahalimaw na tao. Active entity ba ito na masasagap niya ang plinaplano mo? Papano kung iniisip mo pa lang pero masama na, 'mala inse' o criminal intent kumbaga, sisingilin ka na ba ni Karma.

Ang punto ko, pano kung nalaman mo na binulaga na pala ni KARMA yung taong matagal mo nang minimithing KARMA-hin, matutuwa ka ba? Ipapakita mo bang masaya ka? O pipigilan mo sarili mo kasi baka makita ka ni KARMA at ikaw naman ang biglang pagbalingan ng kakaiba niyang powers?

monday-tuesday

1.19am

i just arrived. my eyes are drooping but i have to go online not to blog (this is but incidental) but to chat with J, she's offline so i just sent her an email. We were not able to meet this Saturday because i have a battle this week, i assumed she consented (because for a while i thought it was taking its toll on our relationship... it is, but we are managing... i think so... hoping...), and base on her mails there is the element of consent.

so why am i late? i attended a xmas party at dampa. it was fun and nice but im too tired to enjoy every bit of it. my eyes are squinting but my lips are curling... smiling. gravity is pulling my shoulders yet my voice is booming... laughing.

there's another xmas party scheduled for thursday, and 2 for friday..... YES it's xmas na.... everybody anticipates these events .... and i cannot care enough. still am swamped with digests, provisions and reviewers.


sige matutulog na ko..... gigising pa ako ng 3.30, maliligo, sasakay ng pa-ayala, papasok sa opisina ng ala-sais, mag tatrabaho....

SHOCKED

I stood, silence and blank stare
amid the crowd's glare
i'm not confused, the fact is
i cannot deduce

and i want to make an excuse
but words fail me.

i am stunned

too shock that my soul left me
now I feel empty
like bereft of dignity

and i want to make an excuse
that my time is loose

the shear volume overwhelms me
the time that i have cannot compensate
to imbibe all those legis de jure

but i cannot make an excuse

Thrilled by Trillanes

Not me.

Yesterday while waiting for the free lunch our office throws every end of the month, someone informed my officemate that Thrill-anes walked out of his hearing! It was nothing as far as I'm concerned, It's like one I'm used to just like most people are. We are so used to walkouts, rallies, shouting matches, and mud slinging for ours is a democratic country after all. Save for the question of how come he were able to walk out of that hearing and walk towards Ayala when there were guard who're supposed to maintain calm. As we were holed up in our office slaving away, URLs of abs-cbn, inquirer, and the philippine star were loading their updates. We're more excited with the free lunch after all.

After the free lunch, it hit us. The event was that serious after all, I thought he was just bored of his incarceration that he decided to stroll the business district. Silly me, Thrill-anes is man with a mission. So what's the mission you asked? Hmmm... he went to Manila Pen, there surrounded by Guingona the elder, and a bunch of Holy Priests, and of course the Magdalo die-hards. Gad, the good senator cannot deny that it was PREMEDITATED. Only minutes after his announcement, some group were already at the ayala triangle complete with banner and leaflets.

Funny that we thought we were discussing the merits of the event when another colleague pop the question, "Why is he fond of Hotels-- not just any Hotel but the upscale one?"

I was flabbergasted. Oo nga naman. And the same colleague asked why not motels?

It really was that serious that we were sent home early as other offices in makati were. Of course we're happy about that and even decided to go to Manila Pen to thank Thrill-anes personally. We did went that way but we were on the other side near Shangri-la and it really was a non event looking from that way. There were the usual uzis bu nothing spectacular - yet. Everyone just wants to go home.

While I too wanted to hitch a ride to Laguna, I cannot. The School haven't made an announcement yet, so I just decided to wait the announcement there. And what a good 30 minutes can make. Arriving at school, I met D then we decided to watch at the canteen when we passed at an office were people were already laughing at the screen.

Blow-by-Blow account, literally. Every action, every sound, those news anchors have to blurt as if the viewers cannot see, as if we cannot hear. This time, there were already SWAT in the area, there were tanks, gas masks, and high powered gun. So eto na, AKSYON na 'to! Donald Castro was commendable, he was a gadfly. Fear clearly is not in his blood at least as it appears on tv. He was not afraid to egged the officers to tell him the tactical details, HINDI SIYA MAKULIT, pramis HINDI.

I was praying for that SUSPENSION announcement. It never came.

And so, we heard from the latecomers that Thrill-anes will surrender soon. What they didn't tell us was that we later found out was that Manila Pen was tanked.

After class, we were informed of the curfew put by Malacanang. And somebody asked if Martial Law was declared. And I did't care. I just want to go home.

Horror. Incredible. That's how to describe the terminal! Suuuuper long LINE of passengers waiting for the bus to arrive. The line looped 5 times, imagine that! And it was raining, and we are looping in the puddle of mud for 4 hours, I was there, waiting for the bus. I called home to tell them that. And I'm fuming mad. My feet is throbbing. that is 3 nothches up from the regular pain of just wearing shoes for 12 hours. I was told that there was a HEAVY traffic in SLEX contributing to our misery that this traffic will also be a MISERY going to Laguna.

Siyet. Pucha. Leche. !@#$%^&*( ang sakit na ng paa ko. HUDAS!

There, in that tortuous line that i realized the desperation of this person Thrill-anes and his ilks. Them who have Messianic Complex, them who think they are not corrupt, never corrupt. OR SO THEY THOUGHT.

Siyet if they think that in one fell swoop they can change the ENTIRE NATION. Mga HANGAL pala SILA.

Corruption is ingrained in our culture. And yes that is the problem. Because the next generation of POLITICIANS won't let the previous POLITICIANS to bask in worldly glory of money and power. Platitude as it is, the only way to combat this culture of corruption is to start at home, while kids are young. In school where ideas are introduced and formed. NOT when they've already formed KALYO all over their body.

SO PLEASE, coup d` etat is very 1980's. SAWA na ko.

Funny thing, that this morning kaniya kaniya na namang tanggi ang mga NAGMAMALINIS na GRUPO... kaniya kaniya na namang TURUAN, kaniya kaniya na nman silang SISIHAN.

Thrill-anes surely is not thrilled by this turn of events. That in the end, learning that no one's behind him.

You Are a Warlock (or Witch)

You are deviously brilliant and a perfect manipulator.You somehow always end up getting what you want - without anyone knowing you're working behind the scenes. Crafty and cunning, you can work your way out of any jam.And it's easy for you to get people to do what you want, whether you're working for good or evil. Your greatest power: Mind control Your greatest weakness: Making people your puppets You play well with: Ghosts

What Kind of Monster Are You?

Rainy day on a friday

I'm happier when it rains because the weather is cooler and the rain clouds are impervious to the sun's glare. Eating-Sleeping is the best activity, really. And if not for the obligation to come to work, I would have been dozing the day off.

Carnage

There is turmoil out there

Carnage! rambling!
What is to do but dig
Dig bones out of earth
Mudgraves! Timber!
Morbid trenches!
-- earth intruders, Bjork

UPDATE:
4 died including Representative from Basilan, Wahib Akbar;
9 were reportedly injured which includes 2 Representatives.
The police authorities have zeroed in on Akbar as the likely target; And of course the familiar oppositionists didn't let an opportunity to blame all these to Malacañang.
click here for more!

As i shift sleepily on an almost empty bus for my routinary 52km ride to and fro from school/work, an old man interrupted my woolgathering to ask if the TV already flashed an update? I asked and made him repeat his question twice, and have answered No, that the bus was playing a B movie ever since it left the terminal. And then he cut me saying in an animated grandpa voice that Batasan Pambansa was bombed.

I was shocked, myriad thoughts entered my mind --- some good, most were bad. The very first thing I deed at home was to change the channel to ANC. And in full color while the camera focuses and zooms in on target, just like a scene from action/horror flick flashed in the screen: the collapsed lobby ceiling , a victim whose burnt face in close-up, a doctor in the emergency room giving a cpr and JDV making statements to whatever effect.

El Fili comes in to my mind. Blowing up the house where the Who's-Who of colonial Manila gathers for the wedding reception of Paulita and Juanito Pelaez (?). If not for the telenovela-mushy mentality of Isagani, who wanted to save his Paulita did the unthinkable then all those prayle's and meztizos, and peninsulares, would have been blown out into smithereens and into oblivion. Of course there will be those innocent casualties, but then again the end woul justify the means.... very Machivellian.

That, lingers. And yes at some point I was thinking batasan was bombed, hmm, no more de venecia, no more villanueva et al. No more grand standing politicians. The void will be filled by new breed of individuals who have genuine vision for this country to legislate bills that would move us forward. New breed of leaders that would unite this nation once and for all. And for all the innocent victims? Their number surely pales in comparison with the rest of the 87 Million Filipinos.

The problem with this theory is... What if those who'll assume power next is the same or even worst than the De Venecias of today?

the Karma, that was...

Today marks the start of another successive months of grueling secret-service duty. That means, heaps of secret-service reading material, sifting evidences, jacking up memory, defragmenting hard disk for every bit of spaces available and much more. The torture I believe is no different from those employed by Gitmo special operatives, but like those hardened terrorists, to shout for justice is to swim naked in the arctics -- it is futile. Oh well, I bring this upon myself so I cannot accuse nobody. I really have to thank God for helping me make it through those days of intense cross examination, that I really have to call HIS name in silence to evade being made to stand up and made like a statue for hours for not having known the facts of the cases and related rulings.

I enjoyed the furlough though, from day one up to the last minute. I was able to replenish and bring to stable condition my alcohol reserve which was sucked dry; slept 8 hours on weekdays and more on weekends; met with friends and got updated by the latest and juiciest chismis; have attended a really intimate wedding also of a friend, enjoyed my girlfriend without hearing the tic-tocs of my watch -- mall food, trinoma, market2, cinema, guada-escolta ferry, binondo/ongpin, and chinese food, spicy indian/persian food - the smell of kilikili.

I shall conquer the tasks ahead, just like the previous months. I have to.

"It's a feeling that brings on heart-pounding panic, even as you are pulling all the legal levers in court with simulated confidence and spinning a web of lies to the media outside."

- Paul Madriani, the Jury.

Past days-months have us endure a confluence of national drama, comedy, suspense and thriller. Investigations in aid of reelection, suicides from poverty, NBN-ZTE, Comelec, Glorietta, Cavite, Conviction, Pardon and the list can add some more.

Reminder to those who sold or is planning to sell their soul to the devil, the interest they seek is far greater than you imagined. The sad part is he's taking other people besides you. I guess that's what Karma is, while others lost their lives, he spare yours so that you'll be tortured by your prior acts and suffer for the rest of your life that you'll wish you've suffer a heart-attack and die.

the psychology of "hiya"

Many times we have done or have not done things because of hiya. Often we are barred from saying things or acting them because we deem it to be nakakahiya. The same way we cannot refuse requests because it would be nakakahiya not to grant it. Such is the dual characteristic of HIYA.

I am an extremely shy person or so I believe. I know it is irrational because there's nothing nakakahiya naman si ginawa ko. Maybe it's the thought of what others would think or of the violent reaction it would elicit. The introvert me have analyzed this irrational manifestations. And have came up with this realization, that yes HIYA without necesarrily acting shameful, despicable, or ignorantly blissful is irrational. And that HIYA can be a powerful tool to get what I want. heehee..

I have to come out of my shell and condition myself that there's nothing NAKAKAHIYA in what I -- have done, am doing, will do. And that I look normal and not clown-ish. All thos minifestations of an introverted creature. Now is the time to use the other character of HIYA. That is to get favorable result! tyahahaha.

Here's how it works:

CASE:
A is really hungry and has no money. He is with his friend B who arrived with burger meal B2 from Jollibee and is now munching on it happily.

SCENARIO 1:
A should restrain himself. Nakakhiya naman if he asked B for food, who might think he's dead-hungry or dirth-poor to buy a meal for himself.

SCENARIO 2:
A should humbly asked B to spare him some food and explain his situation.
Which could possibly have 2 reaction:
a) B would gladly share his food because not doing so is very UN-christian and nakakhiya
to be a damot friend.
b) B would feel offended by the begging of his friend and turn A down. Leave him to die of
hunger.
c) B would feel offended by the begging of his friend but spared him some food because not
doing so is very UN-christian and nakakhiya to be a damot friend.

HELD:
* A and C are the most likely answer, and HIYA figures prominently on both of them..

believe it or not.

You are The Hermit

Prudence, Caution, Deliberation.

The Hermit points to all things hidden, such as knowledge and inspiration,hidden enemies. The illumination is from within, and retirement from participation in current events.

The Hermit is a card of introspection, analysis and, well, virginity. You do not desire to socialize; the card indicates, instead, a desire for peace and solitude. You prefer to take the time to think, organize, ruminate, take stock. There may be feelings of frustration and discontent but these feelings eventually lead to enlightenment, illumination, clarity.

The Hermit represents a wise, inspirational person, friend, teacher, therapist. This a person who can shine a light on things that were previously mysterious and confusing.

Click Here to discover yours.

awoooooooooh

Parang piyesta na naman sa amin. Tipikal na piyesta, may perya, ferris wheel, horror train, bingo, beto-beto, color game, atbpa. Sa gilid naman may mga popcorn, cotton candy, shawarma, at isaw. Sayang, kagabi kasi habang nag iikot kami ang gusto kong bilihin calamares, kaso wala akong nakita. Tipikal na piyesta kasi may mga nagtitinda ng tiangge-quality stuff gaya ng mga t-shirt na may imprenta ng pinakasikat na artista at palabas. May mga sombrero, palawit, at kung ano anong abubot. Piyestang piyesta, hindi ng santo kundi ng mga patay.

Noong nakaraang sabado, naka-text ko si D, yun kasi yung mga panahong kung may MGB lang eh yun yun pinapanood ng lahat. Tama, kung may MGB lang. Napagmunimunihan tuloy namin ang mga nakaraang palabas nito, alin ang korni alin ang mga nakakatakot talaga. Pero para sa akin, dun ako pinaka natakot sa episode ng BABAENG ITIM. Yun yung merong dalagang nagpunta sa banyo, at habang naghihilamos ay may sumulpot na nakakatakot na mukhang lola na nakaitim na baro't saya na lace. At akmang pagtakbo niya ay saktong lumipat yung BABAENG ITIM sa pintuan... Hahahah.. Katakot talaga. Kaya nung nakatulog yung pinsan ko, kumuha kami ng itim na tela at merong nagwagayway sa harap niya habang merong gumigising sa kaniya... Una niyang nakita yung tela, kaya ayun, nagsisisgaw na parang kinakatay na baboy! hehe.

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Shake Rattle and Roll

Ito na ata ang longest series ng horror movie sa 'pinas. Hindi na nga siya nakakatakot eh, pero may isang release sila na hanggang ngayon ay may epekto sa akin... Yun yung episode nina Rudy Fernandez at Alma Moreno. Ang istorya kasi ay bagong kasal sila at sa Baguio nila naibigang magpulo't gata. So hindi siya erotic Alma Moreno classic. Sobrang tumatak sa alaala ko yung habang naliligo si Alma at habang hinahaplos niya ng marahan at sensual ang kaniyang katawan at akmang magbabanlaw na ay pikit mata niyang binuksan ang gripo, sige haplos, sige punas nang biglang DUGO ang lumabas sa gripo at shower... Yikes.... Kaya hanggang ngayon, hindi ako napikit pag naliligo, kahit hilam na hilam na ako hindi ako napikit, ayokong pagmulat ko pulang pula na ang katawan ko sa DUGO. ayoko nun.

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Noong Linggo rin, may napanood ako tungkol naman sa pelikula dati ni Bistek... Hahaha, yun yun pinaghahampas nila ng buntot pagi at palaspas yung manananggal.. Natawa talaga ako, naalala ko tuloy na dun ko makuha yung ideya na hampasin ng palaspas ang mga demonyo/salbahe. Natatawa ako kasi pag nagaaway kami ng kapatid ko hinahampas ko siya ng palaspas. LOL.

prisoner erap NO MORE

I am proud to have been part of EDSA 2, the only rally that i have joined my entire life. Having graduated from the University that prouds itself to be the beacon of activism, this was the only issue i cared advocating. The thundering chant of 'ERAP RESIGN now!' still reverberates all over my body, the honking of vehicles to the same tune excites us and energizes us even more. Now it's history.ERAP did resign -- constructively as the Supreme Court puts it. We did push him out of office after all. Now it's history.

The Sandiganbayan have valiantly stayed put and remained unblemished from outside pressure. For SIX long years they have labored and sifted thru truth and lies and have managed to CONVICT Erap of Plunder. The day we saw justice triumphs over those ho have flouted the law big time and have condescendingly raped the national coffers in favor of his kamag-anaks, kaibigans, and kumpares... the same lot he have sworn on his first day to never allow to influence his administration. Yes we are jubilant, to use elation is an understatement. It have shown the whole world that we are serious in stamping out graft and corruption. Now, that's history.

It's not entirely a surprise though, the talk of pardoning prisoner Erap lingers like a putrid decaying corpse. And yes there were a lot of threat and opposition against any grant of pardon. And yet despite it, Arroyo the unpopolar, barely weeks of conviction, have formalized the rumors and pardoned Erap she DID. The President’s order in full: Accessed 30 October 2007

“Whereas, this Administration has a policy of releasing inmates who have reached the age of seventy (70),

“Whereas, Joseph Ejercito Estrada has been under detention for six and a half years,

“Whereas, Joseph Ejercito Estrada has publicly committed to no longer seek any elective position or office,

“In view hereof and pursuant to the authority conferred upon me by the Constitution, I hereby grant executive clemency to Joseph Ejercito Estrada,convicted by the Sandiganbayan of plunder and imposed a penalty of reclusion perpetua. He is hereby restored to his civil and political rights.

“The forfeitures imposed by the Sandiganbayan remain in force and in full, including all writs and processes issued by the Sandiganbayan in

pursuance hereof, except for the bank account(s) he owned before his tenure as President.”

One moment we are ecstatic, the next gloomy. The outrage is not without any basis. 1) The conviction has not even reached a month to be celebrated; 2) ERAP has never been to a real Pinoy jail, the one that is overcrowded and reeking with cockroaches; 3)The reason that he is 70 and that it is a state policy to release such convicts is outright unfair if not illogical.

Following that same reasoning, then never should we see any prisoners age 70 and above. Rightfully indignant, Erap committed the biggest crime against the state and that is PLUNDER.

According to the Revised Penal Code :

Art. 36. Pardon; its effect. — A pardon shall not work the restoration of the right to hold public office, or the right of suffrage, unless such rights be expressly restored by the terms of the pardon.

A pardon shall in no case exempt the culprit from the payment of the civil indemnity imposed upon him by the sentence.


Art. 41. Reclusion perpetua and reclusion temporal; Their accessory penalties. — The penalties of reclusion perpetua and reclusion temporal shall carry with them that of civil interdiction for life or during the period of the sentence as the case may be, and that of perpetual absolute disqualification which the offender shall suffer even though pardoned as to the principal penalty, unless the same shall have been expressly remitted in the pardon.

Erap the free man now restored to his full civil and political rights, is an awful truth, a history that would haunt us forever.

Agree or not, 2 weeks more and PINOYS would not even care.

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But contrary to popular demand, I beg to not join those who call for Arroyo's resignation. The alternative to this administration as FVR puts it is ANARCHY, and nobody wants it (?). The constructive thing to do is to set sight of 2010, build a credible lineup of personalities that would bring our country not only economic wealth but instill patriotism, morality, and a sense of nationhood that after more than 100 years of independence we haven't really acquired nor enjoyed.

Side note. Kasi naman everytime I see or hear Oscar Cruz, Antonio Tobias, Nene Pimentel, Teofisto Guingona, Dinky Soliman point their accusing fingers and open their loudmouth, I lose interest to anything they are filibustering about. Sad bunch of old frustrated wannabes.

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And to everyone who have sold their souls to the devil just to hold on to that fleeting political clout, Hala, Mata lang ang walang latay sa takdang panahon!

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In spite of all these, Yes, the Filipino people is still worth dying for! Somehow justice will be served and exacted to those who have deprived the others.

Quick updates

Prisoner Erap was pardoned
(i'll be writing more on this :D)

Dumboldore is gay

Naruto mangga: chapter 375
Naruto shippuuden: episode 31


Bleach mangga: chapter 296
Bleach anime: episode 145

Goat - escapist, nudist

The LPP officials refused to apologize for the money distribution and blamed their secretariat for handing out the money right in Malacañang and for not explaining to the two governors what the money was for.

Evardone said it was unfortunate that the Palace was dragged into the issue, which was a result of a “miscommunication.”

news from Inquirer.

A convenient excuse. An escape goat.

Not that it is unbelievable, it's just so late an excuse. And I don't want to add anymore to those who are perpetually questioning the motives of this administration. But, sanamagan, they should have done that the very next morning Gov. Panlilio of Pampanga asked them to explain what the money was all about. It is laughabale at the most, but everyone finds it funny no more. So the spokesperson of LPP claimed it was because of the secretariat's fault not explaining to the newbie governors what the money in the brown baggy is for and of all the places distribute it inside the palace! Doling out 500,000s without explanation nor receipts is not dubious?! Wow, where is transparency albeit accountability? Ho hum. It seems, from the same article, that the only qualification for receiving such small amount of moolah is to be a first timer governor. Because it is the 'noble' wish of the LPP to help the said governors in their 'capacity-building' .Despite the capacity of the province? Would it not be inequitable to give Bulacan and Pampanga (already relatively stable if not rich provinces ) a measly 500,000 when other provinces would have benefited from that ALLOTED/PULLED/CONTRIBUTED fund which according to the governonr of Palawan totals 21 Million (the fund or the total money given?).

Noble huh?

Hmm... this is one of the legitimate issues which fails to solicit a palpable reaction from Juan dela Cruz. Haay, it seems many are still lethargic to take action (not necessarily on the street). But apathy just seemed to be still the general atmosphere. Yep, everyone just wanted to go on with their everyday life, earn a living, feed their family and politicians be damned, nobody cares anymore. Why? My observation is that many if not most are fed up with the antics of our politicians. Oppositionists blaming the administration for the nation's every ill, conducting investigation at the hint of every controversy, all for media mileage. And the administration for shrugging off it's human right's statistics, of its legitimacy, of its foreign policies and treaties (JPEPA, ZTE, CyberED, etc.). Of the so-called civil society who also blames the administration also for everything including the death of their pets. Of religious preachers who cannot help but meddle with the afffairs of the State. Of the leftist activists who denounces every government as 'tuta ng kano'. Of the rightist government apologists. and other clowns and buffoons. (ejusdem generis). All these contribute to the numbing of Juan dela Cruz whose body now has an inch thick kalyo.

We are not stupid, and please do not push us over the edge. Because when push comes to shove, bigla na lang magigising ang mga damdaming makabayan! And, I may be an idealist but hell yeah, what's wrong in wanting to be governed and served by a government that truly cares for the welfare of its citizens?

I'm sure marami pa rin ang mga matatapang, tunay, palaban, at makabayan!

break na tayo, break break break na tayo # 1

at long last, i can finally say it's over! woohoooo..... Hello alak! hello puno, kumusta naman ang bundok? ang mga alon, humahampas pa? Last friday was the last day of a week long QA contest, that was a tough one. i am convince that working is not compatible with codals and jurisprudence and provisions and constructions, (or maybe it depends on the type of work?, but i doubt that because any work entails time consumption, ergo lost precious time that could have been devoted to reading cases and memory works.) But hell no, to not work is not an option for me.

Hay, kelan ba ko tatama ng lotto??? ... 'nyway as i was saying we drank the night away somewhere near manila de bay. laugh trip talaga!. afterwards, we stayed with G for two hours to kill time. D and I woke at about 4.30 am and went straight to bus station going to our respective probinsiyas.

I slept until past 10.30. Yahooo! talaga, waking late with nothing to read or memorize in particular. Kain breakfast, bukas t.v, laruin ang aso... sumalampak sa sofa. I am attending a wedding at 1.30pm, and since i asked the bride (H.S classmate/friend) for a particular gift (she said anything but kitchen things). and i'm finding it hard to think of the best gift, but then i just decided to give it in cash.. anything less 5,000 is an acceptable hassle-free donation propter nuptias. Hahahaha... wala naman akong hangover niyan! LOL.

So i went to xing to withdraw some measly cash and to my horror (since it was a payday) 4 atms i've been to were all blinking red, futcha ang init mehn... and naglalakad lang ako. so dasal dasal, kasi pag wala akong na-widthraw wala akong gift :( ... the power of prayer nga naman, yung isang Equitable buhay pa! hooray. Then balik na sa bahay, ligo bihis 1:00 pm pasado na... hanap sa polo.. hanap sa polo... wala si polo! %^&*$# naknangpating, baba ako hanap sa tambakan ng nalabhan.... EUREKA! hindi pa napa-plantsa! tsk. ma-lalate na ko... to cut it short: naplantsa ko nakapagbihis ako, nagpabango at humayo patungo sa simbahan. On my way, i was texting profusely because i knew i was late so i was asking my friends where were they seated... And because i was busy txting i forgot to pay . yikes, tinawag pa ko, nakakahiya.. Hahaha...

Sa simbahan, sa lugar ng kabanalan, sa lugar kung saan nagsisisi ang lahat, na kung saan ay may altar para sa Diyos at mga santo.. doon sa simbahan, nawala ang aking cellphone. hinanap ko. walang nagsauli.

The thought of losing the phone did not sink until the end of the ceremony. The wedding was intimate, very ideal, grand but not pretentious. Yun yung ideal wedding ko, hindi stiff, nag eenjoy mga tao, good food. Haay, narealize ko marrying age na nga pala ako.. :D It was nostalgic seeing my HS classmates. sigh. To C&M may you have a wonderful and fulfilling family life ahead of you!

After the wedding we changed into our casuals and went to paseo de sta rosa... Hahaha.. gala to the max! But before that i have my cousin call Globe reps to block my phone. I was told I can apply for the same number when i avail of a new account. So yun yung pa konswelo... pero pano
yung 4 years worth of contacts aber???

Wala akong ginawa ng sabado at linggo! mabuhay! Of course i have not forgotten the research paper, may monday to saturday pa naman eh.

harhar. So monday, serious mode ulit, i went to the LIB to gather materials and literature to support my paper. And that kept me busy the whole weeknights until 1.30 am. And today, ipa-pass ko na today ang research paper ko today, yehey na naman to!!!

Honestly i feel proud of myself for being able to jugle work at the same time having survived the rigors of loskul, could have performed better but at least i got a nice excuse for being/doing otherwise... Hahahaha...

Oscar the Grouched

Give it to Gov. Panlilio, all the fuss due to his being a political greenhorn. I would not focus on whether it was a bribe or not, or should the good governor accepted the money or not. We do not really know what transcribed in that League of Governor's meeting, so I should just reserve my comment until further information (¿incriminating?) leaks out. As to the ever-talkative and very bitter BISHOP OSCAR CRUZ, tsk tsk tsk is all I can say. And I quote:

“The teaching of the Church is clear: However holy your intention could be, you cannot just use money if you don’t know its source for this may be wrong,” Archbishop Oscar Cruz of the Lingayen and Dagupan Archdiocese, said in an interview with Church-run Radyo Veritas.

»» Ang plastic! It is a common knowledge that Catholic Church receives money from Jueteng Lords. And that not a very long time ago a clergy even defended the Church action and feigning innocence as to the source of the money telling everybody that donations are donations and that it is not the Church's business to ask where it came from. Haay, naku another hypocritical act from the bitter 'oscar the grouch' cruz.

“I have been against his entering into politics ever since so I would just reserve more comments on the issue involving him,” Cruz said referring to Panlilio, who was former parish priest in Pampanga. Cruz headed the Catholic Bishops Conference of the Philippines.
»» Aynaku ulit, this shows you Mr.Grouch is a one bitter priest, Gov. Panlilio beat you into it. At least his brand of service is an 'action' type unlike yours, 'the-tongue-lashing-toxic-comments-criticize-like-there's-no-tomorrow' type of a bitter self blasphemer. At least si gov positive, eh ikaw mr.grouch? phooey!

He said the distribution of the cash was “nauseating,” considering that it took place in the wake of the filing of a new impeachment case against President Arroyo.
»» Yeah, Let's philosophize everything! Everyone is a moral person, and thou art the most moral of them all... yikes!

“It’s so sad to know that not too many of our politicians have the courage to say no to money. It seems that when it comes to money, most of them really melt down,” Cruz lamented.
»» Oh well, and so is the Church that you are serving.

Philippine Med Schools

“OK, before we go any further, can I check those diplomas? Because I would just like to make sure they are not from some med school in the Philippines.” - teri hatcher, desperate housewives

So, this line pronounced by teri hatcher in 'desperate housewives' has exposed once again the onion-skinned knee-jerk reaction of most pinoys.

Well, maybe it has indeed cast a doubt over the pinoy medical practitioners. And it's rightful for them to demand apology from the network. And ABC have already released such. But for the hitchhikers, think again....

Personally i don't think it is a racial slur... hatcher said she wanted to MAKE SURE that the doctor is not from SOME MED SCHOOL in the philippines. So, what's the big deal? Surely, she's not referring to UP and UST med graduates. LOL. But kamon naman, let's face it, kung tayo nga dito kung mang discriminate sa mga pipichuging schools parang walang bukas... And her line is not about discrimination at all, it's about a patient wanting to be treated by a competent physician, eh kung graduate nga naman ng Mt.Tralala School of Medicine na kung saan ang specialty ay FAITH HEALING, hindi ka ba naman matatakot. My, point is, the character's demand is to be expected from a paying patient.

So ang mga balat sibuyas naglipana, kaniyakaniyang papogi na naman sa camera. Hahaha, sisihin ba naman si Teri Hatcher??? ano daw? Haha... 1) Script lang po yun, 2) The line is not discriminatory at all, pwede naman niyang sabihing 'from some med school in arizona'.

Pinoy talaga, funny. :D

And besides alam natin na magagaling mga pinoy doctors save for those who graduated from 'some med school'. Heheheh... Kaya this is just a challenge for every med school to produce high caliber physicians. And also for the Civil Service Commission at sa Professional Regulatory Commission to screen prospective doctors and shut down the non-performing always kulelat ma school kasi it is your duty to protect the public from unscrupulous practitioners from all fields and professions.Tama na ang lagayan, red tape at leakage na nag co-compromise sa quality at image ng Pinoy professionals!

Lucky

...
she's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries with her lonely heart, thinking
If there is nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night.
...
Britney Spears

Free Burma and the falling rain

I am one with the monks. May KARMA befell upon their oppressors and may the Burmese people live the free life the truly deserve

* last week, in the height of this turmoil i got irritated when one of my officemate, a sophist 'christian' branded the monks as having disregarded their most important religious tenet. I was confounded on WTF was that all about. Burmese people have suffered long enough because of an oppressive military regime, think pol pot, think genocide. And that all these saffron-clothed monk did was march in silence, and all this officemate of mine can intellectually say is that??? Ohh... talk of religious hypocrisy! I was really dumbfounded that all I have told him was a brief history of the oppression that was in Burma and that i have no idea what the MOST important religious tenet of the monks were. But one thing for sure, i said, that them knows what they are doing and that it is the right of everybody to live peacefully, monks or not.

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Yesterday as I was sitting by the window preparing for some secret-service stuff, the rain was falling hard. The weather center said it was caused by the passing of Hannah. I really prefer the cold wet rain over the heat and UV rays of the sun. And i was inspired by the sound of the rain drops impinging on the roof, pavement and earth...

ode to the rain

the rain is falling now
the sky pours melancholy
as the rivers overflow with glee
the road are flooded indignantly

the dampness that surrounds me
the musty smell of my pillows
the cold moist air
lulls me to effervescent discontent

intriguingly, the wind is not howling
as if preparing.
please come swiftly
and blow me into anonimity

useless-me

caveat: this is a fiction .

while guarding my post, i saw an old friend. Not quite in the best moods in recent days, like a default action of a switch statement, I've asked myself how low i've shrunk in the Standards list.

certainly low I surmised. I've been toiling for years and no glimmer of material emancipation in sight.
another friend from the years past have already took her qualifying exams, not only that, graduating from the MOST prestigious institution to boot with.
a not so exciting enslaver.
a lipidinous consort.

no i don't usually compare myself. i never do. but it's the reality that is glaring at me real hard that makes me realize this depressing truth. the uselessness of my efforts. the inadequacy of my situation. the hopelessness that surrounds me. again, pushing me inside my shell.

for all the sacrifices i've made, i guess i form part of the majority who would be like that, sacrificial lamb, victim of social injustice for the rest of my terrestrial existence.

i cringe at the fact that i lagged at the one thing im sure i wanted and actually good at.
damn poverty. damn pauperism. damn. damn. damn.

how is that?!

now, all i wanna do is sleep this viral depression hoping that the cure will present itself by the time consciousness knocks me into reality.

turtle's path

i hate metaphor, it's a lie - a curious incident of a dog in a nighttime, mark haddon

i'm a sea turtle out in the sea
i'm flowing with the current
i'm out on a journey
but how come crossed path
seemed to overlap
why is the current intermittent
why can't it just howl in lament

ABzTE

well, gasgas na nga yan, yan daw yung bagong alphabet.whatever.

Yep, we were able to catch one big janitor fish off the pusali known as the philippine politics. I wont pontificate on the merits of the case, people vs. estrada is a nice read for everyone, so read it if you have time. Hooray, is not enough I know, an understatement at most. But, yes I'm happy that the sandiganbayan did not succumb to pressure. Feeling naman ni dufus rodriguez na by approving the budgetary request of SB e they will recieve a favorable verdict. You mister dufus is a scheming lawyer, SHAME shame! Sayang nga lang, many were left in the dark that left erap fans confunded bacause of another evil ploy from the DEFENSE. The audacity to have a motion for SB to just read the dispositive portion. Yes it was brief, but personally it defeated the purpose of informing the public how and why the court was able to come up with the decision. Owmygolay! Sabi na, the evil ploy was to create a shadow of doubt and put the validity and integrity of SB in a dubious light. Haaay..

For me what really pinned the plunderer down was the Belle shares issue. Bakit kamo? basahin mo... LOL (As i've warned, I would not discuss the merits of the case, there's too much info on the web already so do your homework and read. Read. read.)

Natawa naman ako kay former Senator Saguisag ng sabihan niyang 'Premature E-JAKOL-ation' yung celebration ng private and public prosecutors. Wohoooo. Bitter comment and puerile unexpected of his stature as a respectable former senator (but expected from a loosing old man)

The lesson reaaly is clear, that we can get those who rape our nation, our economy and ideals and benefit from it on the process. So for the tradpols specially the dirtiest breed read, YOU no longer enjoy the vastness of the pond, YOU will be caught, and be punished.

RE ZTE, hindi ko masyado nasusubaybayan kasi so I have no authority to determine the validity of the supposedly EXECUTIVE AGREEMENT. What caught the ire of the public maybe was not the DEAL per se but the circumstances sorrounding it. Birumin mong mainvolve ang Commissioner ng COMELEC? How is that naman? And my gulay, $$$$$ na bribe? usapang brie at per na naman. Ganon na lang siguro talaga, pera pera lang yan pag nasa government ka?! And the latest now is that FG is being implicated, again. Very anomalous indeed.

I am for the truth, so madame president, please dont use EO 464 to suppress it.

What i didn't like in the events that have transpired is the involvement of known pro-estrada congressmen and senators rabidly gnashing at the issue. Halatang they are out to exact revenge. Naman! sabi nga ng anak ni lito lapid sa isang pelikulang flop..... 'saging lang ang may puso'. For Jinggoy, he is bereft of any scintilla of purity. Feeling legal luminary. pwe. Eto namang si Lacson, grabe, ambisyoso! I really dont think you'll win the 2010 presidential election, KARMA is against you.

.. at etong fristrated na si Oscar Cruz... umieksena na naman! hay mga kaparian nga naman... (nasaan na pala si running priest)? Just like in any club where the head got incapacitated by disease or otherwise, the struggle to fillup the void is unimaginable.That i think what happened when the influential Cardinal Sin passed away. Everyone is vying for the limelight. jusme. Oscar Cruz the bishop has this brand of politics similar to any mouthblabbing madungis na local politician. Kung makapagsalita parang anghel sa lupa. That i call religious hypocrisy. Having opinion on national issues is not abominable, it just tells us that the person is concern. But to do it in a way like he's God's gift to mankind (putcha), with all sort of puritanical innuendoes infused with pompous verbiage is different. It really socks. LOL. And to push my theory, nagngngitngit siguro sa galit yan nung nanalo si Fr. Ed Panlilio ng Pampanga. Contrary to Cruz, Ka Ed is humble and is really about serving his province. Tapos. Samantalang si Cruz, mahadero, bungangero, intregero, pari.

Moral lesson: Work hard, live a simple life, and be humble.

strike 2

strike 1 : oblivious/spectral monthsary
strike 2 : no-show @ birthday dinner


I would not elaborate on my excuses, but they really are valid.
Reverse psychology has no effect on me.
The programmer in me encapsulates me from the unreachable codes and instructions.
I am now on energy drink (bacchus/ion) just to stifle somnolence.

I am tired of telenovela dramas.
But it does not mean it's stripped of importance.
I just have to drop the cumbersome meta-drama/ meta-life.

I made you a poem because
you disdain the forwarded message I've sent you.
And I'm posting it here.

What is the essence?
am I making sense
past present & future tense
I presume PATIENCE

presence in putrefaction
malignant if not indignant
melancholic & contrite
and a tad deviant

i cannot console the SUPERFICIAL
when the EGO is livid
and the soul languid
clamor,enamour, endeavor

No, I am not numb just flooded I supposed. Flooded like moonsoon flood.
But don't worry, I can swim. I won't drown.

way of destruction 33:

into the abyss of oblivion
fleur de lis of inhibition
and of stagnant relations
here's to armageddon

the prophecy of abomination
keeping the nights short
and caffeinated shirks of
an embalmed contortions

the prophecy of abomination
telling tales of endeavor
of the musty smell saturating
sulphuric shenanigans satire

to the prestidigitation of the
chicaneric exhibitions
against the discombobulations
of inter-galagtic extenuations

We've seen BOURNE ULTIMATUM... wohooooo, the best! I liked this series though i haven't read the books. Well maybe it's better that way. I just liked the plot and how it evolved into the movie. And this series made me a fan of Mr.Damon. The hell with the high falutin gadgets and software, and computers. BOURNE ULTIMATUM showcases efficiency at its best.Like I can track your IP now, and listen to your conversation. I can hear your grunts, and I can locate your exact position to the nearest hundredths of a degree longitude and latitude. I can override cctvs to do my bidding. Walang binatbat ang Hello Garci wiretapping controversy. And no, I will not make any statements condemning nor condoning the extra judicial activities of the clandestine branch of CIA. It's a movie for cheesecakes sake.

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After watching, we idled around trinoma. In its unfinished stage, I'm ranking it as my best location for idling. I liked the fountains, the architecture, and the view. On one side of the mall, there's this view towards QC Memorial Circle and I never thought I would see so many trees in the city. LOL. And to anybody's chagrin/delight depending on his taste or eccentricity... There was a program hosted by whoever brought the car show inside the activity center. (Must say nice things). There was a program organized for the sake of having a program. The organizers hired an all female band whose attire I observed is a cross between Madonna and Marilyn Manson with obvious hints of Aegis. And I would not comment on how short the jean skirt of the lead vocalist that its exposing half of her arse. I've rationalized to myself that it should be the most comfortable wear for her with all those juggling and body wriggling while she sang Shakira hit songs. The horror. And no she's not obeast, she's just chubby. Again, the horror. Not to mention the two dancers hired from a club 3 notches away from AirForce1 standard. Hahaha, Showcasing highly acrobatic but repetitive dance movements. 10 for difficulty, 2 for originality, 10 again for easy to follow repetitive moves.

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Just when I'm about to post, I've ventured to cnn and this news caught my attention " Vatican airline takes to the skies". LOL. The article tells of many things both godly and earthly. Maybe it's the Catholic education in me that cannot but think that this is just a ploy at furthering their enterprise. Pictures of school nun, telling if not compelling us to buy stuff so and so. To buy tickets for so and so. What they haven't realized is that they've cemented their image as 'kurakots'. I mean, there's nothing wrong with being entrepreneurial, what dismays if not disgusts me is using religious symbolism to further their cause. It's sickening. There's no difference with the prayle's. LOL..

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Last week was the most stressing so far for me. I've got an average of 3 hours sleep a day. Glad it was over, I just hope I haven't failed any.

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Shippuuden Update: Hahaha, The best puppet fight ever. Kankorou's puppet are no match compared to Chiyo bama's nor to Sasori's.

Bleach Update: I've maxed the available anime on the world wide web, so I'm downloading mangas. Hahaha..

Adik or not. I certainly cannot tell... hahahahah

one-wan-1-juan-uno-isa

A year have passed
and im glad it last
for all the distance -
we have surpassed.
Now we embark,
in a new dimension,
of our lifelong aspirations.
And we have each other ...
as inspiration

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Busy.
Naruto Shippuuden: episode 19
Naruto Mangga: 361
Bleach : Episode 109

Yes, despite time running out on me, I still manage (I have to, compulsion maybe) to sneek and follow those anime. I can't help it.

Tiring, but I definitely enjoy it. Codal on my left lap, The book on the right, notes on my desk, And I barely listen, I'm too intent on praying, must not be called. must not recite. must protect dignity. And when you thought that no person could recite chapters of word for word, an mazing person with memory-blast-super-bionic-i-will-spew-it-out-like-a-crazy-volcano-out-
-to-destroy-you-all will save me of all possible humiliatiation. Thanks Thanks.

So many reading so little time. Reading alone eats up all my PRECIOUS, let alone memorizing provisions. And yes, GOD is good. Nothing of dignity-crushing, ego-bashing nor tear-inducing event he let my way.

memory dickory duck

Faced with voluminous provisions and code to memorize, Im missing my IT professors. Them who said and believed that why memorize when there's plenty of available literature on the subject matter. And I believe them.

Yeah, who needs to memorize when I can consult the book any time some question bothers me. Well now is different. I have to spit what the provisions are, verbatim. And that I have to recite the 10 definition of a single idea. Yep we have this guy in our class who would not even bother to bat an eyelash, and voila, he just discussed the whole history of the ancient egyptian civilization in the words of Herodotus. Well, kidding aside, that's how damned good he is in memorizing letters. And I'm having thoughts that he has in IV of gluthapose while sleeping.

Yes, I'm having sleepless nights because of this. And every morning, I feel like I'm a floating specter, lifeless, invisible, and burdened with words, sentences, paragraphs, and numbers.

swampy dumpy sat on the wall

Argh, from i-have-all-the-time-to-slack-around to i-dont-have-time-to-watch-bleach-and-naruto explains the long stupor in this side of the blogosphere. No online news for me, no bleach episodes, but at least i got to sneak and read the latest Naruto manga! Harhar.

But really, i'm swamped right now. I wasn't even able to put an 11th monthsary sweet nothings. Awww.

But I hope to balance my schedule in two weeks time. For now, I really have to cram everything. Every seconds literally count.

To my friends, see you when I see you.

Dyun na

It's hard to juggle legitimate-professional-paid work with manga and anime videos. It made my blogging relegated to sidelines. It's not like there's nothing interesting to write about nor have I lost interest in expository writing. LOL. And having MUTSU has not made a tiny dent in this part of my world. I thought having it would make me feel less guilty because it will take care of my blogging needs. But no, mutsu needs fire power and i can feel how disgusted it is with the current measly packets that trickle down its pristine built. Hahaha.

So, for now, I have to carry the burden of additional guilt (I think I'm turning into a cyber-slacker, LOL). I have long given up on my office siesta in exchange of watching Bleach videos, latest Naruto Shippuuden episodes, and latest Naruto Manga. Naruto isn't that heavy a problem because new episode releases are on Fridays, or Mondays. Bleach on the other hand, has this huge number of available videos.

There, I'd rather spend my free time watching those Japanese imports than writing nonsensical stuff about myself and the not-so-interesting developments or lack of that's hounding my worthy existence. LOL.

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And the rain fell as May bade its goodbye

We celebrated our quarter stay on earth by banging our stomach with sumptuous feast by the bay. Food trip makes our soul ecstatic with gustatory treat (I'm tempted to say gluttony ... but I'm afraid to diminish my soul's pogi points). Thanks to Don Inggo and Doña Pinggoy for having us as their guest, also present were members of the ISMOLSERKEL. After that, we scour ermita for KTV where the long repressed and closeted jologs heave a decibel force of shouting. LOL. And i felt a little queasy because I wasn't able to contribute a significant amount of funding. Next time I'll have cash withdrawn before plunging into the party ... :D

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Together again

I now have more reason to smile. She's been here since Friday. She cooked Miking Ilocos and it was very good, tasted even better than the one I've had in Ilocos, and it is not 'bola' . Hahaha, lalo akong tataba. The next day we went to marketmarket and caught Zodiac. I can feel my Mom is getting jealous because I've been coming home late since she's been here.. Hehehe, and my brother is not helping when he fuels the ember of maternal chains. Nyahaha...

ryoka-bleached-hallow

chuckling fake laughter
smile that ponders mala fide
superficial superiority
narcissistic tendencies

molting birthday boy

A few days ago, i felt uncomfortable reclining on my office chair. The burning sensation has been superseded by the sporadic itching. I dismissed the annoying itchiness to be nothing life threatening, so i continue with my routine.

So yesterday, as I step my first step towards the realization/actualization of my DREAM, of what I've always wanted to be; something happened. The Manila super summer humid heat had me sweating sticky tropical sweat. This i think made the itching unbearable. I was tapping at my back like a wild monkey looking for lice, LOL. And to my horror, the place where the itching occurs has been replaced by bumps forming clusters. Ugly thoughts raised through my mind like, 'may ginalaw ba kami sa ilog, at pinarusahan ako ng diwata ng pagsanjan?', 'Skin disease?','Parasites eating my skin?','Naagnas na ba ako?'. Hahahha .. But of course, there was no thought of dying, i know, I'm not dying, skin molting is really superficial. Natakot lang ako dun sa pulutong ng pantal. Hahaha... Imagine the shock and disgust in my face when i got the chance to view it in a mirror... Parang na- aagnas nga! hahahhaa....

I turned 18 yesterday! LOL. My guess was wrong that I'll turn grumpier. QLC did not impinge its presence, instead I felt at ease and serene. Maybe because lately, I've loosen up on myself. I've tried CONFORMITY (I'll expound on this some other time). Maybe because I've accomplished previously must-do-things-before-i-die. Whatever it is that's keeping QLC at bay is a welcome respite.

I've cooked pancit canton ala Ding Hao (not bad for a first try, next time I'll add more sauce... :D ). Fried chicken, and ice cream. My sister gave me Mernel's cake. And we devour the food noisily happy!

Next year, I'll be 18 again. :D

0001010

tommorow is our 10th month
on the 5th month of this year.
who'd have taught we'd survive
we're miles apart but not our heart
i know it's hard, effort so valiant
patience, soon enough we can frolic
amongst the greeneries and the blues
hampered not by space-time continuum
oh how i look forward into holding you near
spending the time that evade us dear

* 10 (decimal) == 1010 (binary)

minsan isang araw

Pagkatapos ng matagal na panahon, nagka-kitakita rin kami. Ang nakakatuwa doon ay hindi lang kami-kaming magkakabarkada, kasama na ang mga espesyal na babae/lalaki sa aming buhay. Hehehe... Akalin mo nga naman, dati'y mga gusgusing estudyante ng kolehiyo doon sa paanan ng bundok, ngayo'y pormang porpesyonal na! Hehe.. Ang sarap ng pakiramdam lalo na ng magsimula ng magkuwentuhan at higit na masaya ang panguuyam sa mga nahuli ng dating at sa mga absenot. Nakakaaliw din kasi magaling makisama ang mga bfs at gfs nila. Malungkot din kasi hindi ko kasama yung gf ko.

Mga kwentuhang pangnakaraan...
Laglagan ng mga kaibigan. Mga kabalastugan, lasingan, at dating karelasyon. Ngiti lang. Tawa ng konti. Humalakhak kung hindi na mapigil.

pangkasalukuyan...
Ikwento ang trabaho. Sa Accenture, Canon, CyberJ, at Link2Sys. Pero konti lang, iwan ang trabaho at usapang geek sabi ni D. LOL.

at panghinaharap...
May balak ba kayong mag-abroad? Saan kayo lilipat? Bigboss ka na? Saan ka mag-aaral?

At dahil sa malalayo pa ang uuwian, unti-unting nagpaalam. Kamayan, ngitian, samahan ng mga magkakaibigan.

Ang mga nakadalo: J&N,S&I,J&I,R&J,D,M, &N
Ang mga absenot: K,K,& J

Abangan.... Magkakaroon ng ikalawang bahagi, magdamag na paglangoy-langoy. Nasa yugto pa lang naman ng pag pa-plano... Nakakakapanabik.

Spider sa cornflakes

The spider ate too much corn. Hindi sulit yung pinila namin. I'm no professional movie critic so I'll leave those technicalities to the pros and the wannabes, but i have to really tell my tale.

The ticketing booth at the mall has provided for 4 lines. So, there were 4 serpentine lines. But to everyone's chagrin, there were only two ticketing ladies who seemed to be shocked at the enormity of the crowd. Thus ,explains the crawling serpentine web of people of all ages. 1.5hrs wasted on falling in line.

S3 tried to cater to all generations ending up in a dissapointingly dismal display. The movie is too long for the kids less than 5 that those cuddly little monsters sitting at the back had started to kick at our chairs. And there were crying little devils everywhere... Ampf. Don't get me wrong, I like kids, In fact I enjoyed listening to them asking questions. Mga bibo. But bitchy kids are -- bitchy. Hahahaha...

S3 was corny. The dance was ok for 10- 20 seconds, but a full song? And what's with the crowd acting straight like from a comic book? They might as well have added dialogue balloons.. Ampf. And the reporter acting too eager beaver? Ahhhh...

If they planned it to be annoyingly corny, then, hands down, they've achieved their goal. Hahahaha...

But I like the fighting scenes.

Oh, and casting Topher Grace was nice. Parang 'That 70s show' ang kulit niya.

lintik lang ang walang latay

Nagsabog ng lamig ang araw
ang hangin ay maalinsangan
nagyeyelong pawis na bumalot
sa nanlilimahid at malagkit na katawan

ang sinag na umuukilkil hanggang
sa kaibuturan ng aking kalamnan.
mga dahong lanta'y ni hindi makangisi
at ang mga ilog-batis ay puno na ng galis

Kapaligiran ay iba na nga
Kalikasan kaya'y umaalma na
sa kalapastanganan ni eba't adan?
gising! mag-isip! kumilos!

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Last week, Countless Homo sapiens sapiens hypocritically celebrated EARTH DAY. Myriad forms of activities were undertaken to appease our abused planet. Concerts, Film showings, Marathons all in honor of Gaea.

I was able to attend EarthJam concert on T.Morato with friends who also genuinely care and appreciate the beauty, bounty, and anxiety of the environment. I personally went there to catch a glimpse of Giniling Festival. And I was not disappointed on that account.

The organizers cannot be faulted though. They have resource persons talking about what ills our planet. There were pictures and video clips MTV-style that strongly sends their message. The message that our planet is a planet in distress. That extinction of species are at an alarming rate, that global warming is real, and that our rivers are dying, and that our skies are already black from the fumes - the product of our advance civilization.

So advance that we take for granted our environment and the basic nourishment we derive from it. And how ironic that The Leaders of the most advance and developed countries remains adamant if not arrogant for disclaiming the palpable planetary degradation. They refuse to enact laws that will protect our planet. Bigotry at the highest level.

And with the gargantuan message the celebration tried to sell, Did the 'Mahaharot ng Pasig',
'Talipandas ng Tanay', 'Yakitiyakyak ng Nuninu' got the message? Would they act suddenly in reverence to Mother Nature?

I'm afraid the message fell on deaf and tûtûlè-full ears. Them the avril-avril-an wannabes.

Our NGOs and environmental groups have already done so much to the extent of straining their personal finances to be crusaders for our planet. And it is about time for our government to give their share. Laws are not enough, especially those crafted without teeth. We need laws that would punish companies and individuals who egregiously flouted the environmental statutes with devious disregard.

Many are hoping that someday, we will be able to swim our rivers which is teeming with life. Where the oceans have corals, whales and other colorful marine life. Where our sky is blue and a chorale of bird chirping happily. Where we can satisfy our thirst without fear of contacting water-borne diseases. And where our kids would have trees to climb on.

And I, too, hope that we will be able to reverse this pitiful condition of our planet. Hoping that future leaders would have political will to enforce reforms that would translate into results that would be favorable to our environment. HOPE.

Koreanovela : Endless Blood

And they heard boom tarat tarat tararrarararrarat boom boom boom.

Only the beat wasn't of happy-wowowee-game-crazy mood but of gloomy-macabre-death march-somber mood. 33 died in another school shooting massacre in the US of A

Setting : Virginia Tech, Blacksburg, VA, United States of America
Mood : Intense, Horrifying, Mournful
Hero/Victim : Students, Professors, Lecturers
Villain : Cho Seung-Hui (South Korean)

33 lives were claimed including the villain.

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The news came but we were not shocked because event like this has happened before in the US of A. Alarmed, not even. Media sources has long painted the American culture of today's generation to expect such violence. Hate crimes, accessibility and legality of possessing guns, xenophobia, etc breeds and infects them like plague. What really caught our attention was the number of victims plus the Asian looking killer?
Whoa... Asian... napaka encompassing... Naku sabi ng kapatid ko, baka pinoy? Malalagay na naman tayo sa mapa (think Gianni Versace?). Hindi naman siguro kayang pumatay ng tatlompu't-tatlong tao ng isang pinoy sa isang araw. Oo nga't may mga ganung insidente sa atin massacre, serial killing, pero isang tao + 32 na biktima... hindi pa yata. So, sabi ko, hmm, baka Malaysian?, Vietnamese?, Indonesian?, Chinese?

And not so long a wait, they revealed he was a South Korean. Sigh of relief. Just imagine if it turned out to be a Pinoy, the possible retaliatory attacks, and hate crime could be perpetrated against Pinoys in the US of A? What was his motive? What made him transformed into a horrible creature randomly zapping the life of anyone caught by his eyes. A little research and the wonders of CNN and Google led me to this site. You can read two of his school play described as twisted, macabre violence.

And then our conversation shifted on our beloved country where recently have been welcoming the Korean Invasion. Should this news made us feel suspicious and malevolent towards our South Korean visitors?
It should not... I cannot imagine jangyum, chunyang, jessy and justine, etc going ballistic and gunning everybody down. So far the Koreans in our paradise manage only to have drinking parties and fist fights.

My Prayers go to all the victims and their family and friends.

Quail in Rose Petal Sauce

the simple truth is that the truth does not exist; it all depends on a person's point of view - Gertrudis, Like Water for Chocolate : L.E.

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Quail in Rose Petal Sauce

2 cups water, plus 1 cup
2 tablespoons butter
2 cloves garlic, minced
1/2 teaspoon aniseed
12 red or pink roses with open blooms, petals removed
1 pitaya , skinned
12 fresh chestnuts
2 tablespoons honey
Salt and freshly ground black pepper
4 boneless fresh quail
Olive oil

• Heat the water to boiling.

• Meanwhile, melt the butter in large skillet, cook the garlic and aniseed for 5 minutes, and set aside.

• Put the rose petals and cactus fruit in a blender and puree until smooth and set aside.

• Cut an "x" over the flat ends of the chestnuts with a knife. Toast the chestnuts in a hot cast iron skillet for 5 minutes. When the shells open, add the chestnuts to the boiling water and cook for 15 minutes. Drain thechestnuts and allow them to cool. Peel the chestnuts, add them to the rose petal mixture, and puree while adding the remaining cup of water, slowly.
  

• Reheat the skillet with garlic butter mixture and add the rose petals puree. Simmer for 10 minutes then whisk in the honey, salt, and pepper.

• Push the sauce through a sieve, into a clean pan, pressing on the solids to extract the juice and some chestnut pulp. Keep the sauce warm.

• Preheat a grill or grill pan.

• Drizzle the quails with olive oil and season with salt. Grill the quails until they are medium rare, about 5 minutes per side. Serve with the Rose Petal Sauce.

I'll try this recipe one day. And I almost lost interest because how and where the sugat would i get pitaya? Buti na lang may google at wikipedia. Nalaman kong ang pitaya ay yung dragon fruit. Yehey, problema ko na lang ay saan kukuha ng rose petals na walang spray ng chemicals? Hehehe..

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P is a good friend, and like before, we chat about anything, mga chismis at iba pang mga kaganapan. Pero lately, na-focus sa trabaho, and how a person be transformed/transmogrified into 'alipin ng dinero'. Hahaha...

Sad but true.

And, Unless we have to outline a definite plan why we work so hard and where to use those hard-earned money all this time, then I say everything will be lost in futility.

1) Para san pa at kumikita ka nga ng malaki kung hindi ka naman nakakapag- enjoy?
2) Kelan ka pa mag-eenjoy? Kayod ka ngayon ng kayod... hindi nakakapag unwind... Then dumating ka sa point na nag decide kang marami ka ng pera.. tama na yun. Saka mo mapagtatanto at sasambulat sa mukha mo na wlaa ka ng kasamang makipagsayahan. Kasi lahat ng kabarkada mo ay lumagay na sa tahimik. Lipas na sa kanila ang buhay binata/dalaga. Nagsisimula na silang magpamilya. Hala -- The world came crushing.... you are suck in a whirlpool with you at the center, and you are swirling alone, not even dust and leaves cared to join you in that miserable moment where you finally realized how alone you've become...

More money and no friends....

3) Simply put, above-average salary, stressful worklife, toxic workplace, insufferable officemates should not dictate how we would like to live our lives.

We always have a choice :

• Above average salary in exchange for the stressful worklife, toxic workplace, and insufferable officemates? Or

• Resign! be happy, merry, and broke? Or

• Above average salary and balance work and personal life? Yes the keyword is BALANCE....

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Everybody's into evaluating their worklife... and I saw this link from my former officemate's blog. Hehe.. t-in-ry kong sagutan yung evaluation form online. At totoo naman yung asessment na nakuha ko.

You scored 68 out of a possible 147.

Scores here represent a healthy level of commitment and motivation. Although there may be many things about your work you would like to change, in general, you seem to have found a career that provides ample psychic income. You've also most likely been able to strike a healthy balance between your work and personal life.

Although you may feel totally involved in your work, you are not over-involved. You relate well to what you do and to the people who work with or for you. You have a high energy level and can easily marshal extra energy for handling occasional overload situations. You tend not to react to pressure by being driven and aggressive.