Happy New Year Cyber World!
I have recently been joining 2 HS classmates in their weekly drinking session. Yeah, it's threesome. It was cool that we have rekindled or should I say activated our group. But really, I find their set-up weird. They said they were drinking since July, yet when I joined them it was like there was a barrier between them. There were beers alright, but where's the talking or the fun? The other has this distant stare. smoking. The other one is busy taking pictures of us and then immediately uploading them to his FB account without talking to us. 1-2-3 smile. Of course we smile. And those fleeting smile, the smile we have practiced for so long, the one that would appear really happy got posted.
There was an appearance of happiness. But I am not sure if they are happy. After that, the other goes back to staring blankly. The other clutching his phone. I, lost. Should I talk? Because I have this impression that If I do, I would be breaking the peace; that I would be interfering with their routines. And they expect me to join them regularly.
But if I want to stare blankly. I want to do it alone.somewhere. If I want to go-online, i want it in the comfort of our home.
We always ended at 2 am. They'll drive me home. Then I'll receive an SMS thanking me that I was able to join them. That it was great. Anyway, I am thinking of what I want to do in my alone time that I can do when I join them again.
