i read, therefore I AM

i have bookmarked them
they are the first thing firefox loads.
i read for updates,hoping there will be.
hopefully none, saving me from heartbreaks.

yes, i'm torturing myself
preparing for 'that' day
still, hoping not for failure
but for that bam-wam-alakazam

i read them, rants, fantasies, fears, and hopes
just so, even vicariously - live them
so that i might feel their panic, lost, and triumph
so that i can feel the splendor -- the HALLOW halls

'keisea

i was browsing and came across your profile
i've seen your pictures, where you've been
what you're doing, and what you've seen
oh, your smile never fails to mesmerize me

you were my soulmate and you are not aware
you were my friend but you are everybody's friend
you were simple, bereft of misdemeanor
you were always smiling, inducing tremor

you did inspire me, to be better
you are the sunflower in that red bmw.
now you will be the doctor,
and one day i'll be your patient

'how to live life' - for DUMMIES

maybe on some self-help book
an obscured page has suggested;
ways to kiss the hands of heaven
ways to get notice.Oh expose the heathen.

them, books that takes over your soul.
authors that pocket your transmogrification.
them, readers who follow with reverence.
psst... your motives are showing.

go find another self-help book
that will teach you to conceal your intentions.
the stench of your pretension
is reeking with vile deception.

Ilocos trip

*From my ilocos trips; pictures taken with motorola V3

Happy? Merry?

GanG RapE

like predators, lurking
seem impassive and non-moving
and like predators, drooling
ready to pounce,gormandize its prey

in the dead of the night
the deafening silence pierces
like a hungry pack of wolves
undressed, suck the juices of its prey

you raped her as if not enough
swallowed her whole, while triumphantly laughing
we will give you indigestion
so painful you wish you haven't debauch her

you, hungry pack of dirty wolves
who attack by sheer arrogance of numbers
cannot, must not, and will not triumph
you are mistaken for we will denounce your audacity

wolves in sheeps' clothing,
you think we're not looking?
Beware of the lightning rods,demagogues, and mobs
we are full of your schwarmerei, ready to vomit

true, obsolescence should be replaced
do it with dignity and grace
don't force yourselves
or face coup de grace

1 dead 1 blacklabel and 2 cases of grande

death at 25, a young life
obscured by the netherworld.
we remember not your lifeless form
but your laugh,prattle and pranks.

to balance a life lost
we celebrated another's birthday.
intoxicated by the blacklabel,
obstreperous party with the grandee